There's a "Life is Good" sticker on my planner.

I haven't had a very good couple of days.
I try to keep a good attitude.
But sometimes it isn't enough.
Sometimes it just gets too hard.
And I feel like a little baby because all I feel like I can do is sit and cry.
Crying won't make anything go away.
Crying won't make anything appear.
Nothing is new.
Nothing is old.
Nothing makes sense.
Everything makes sense to everyone else.
I sometimes think I really might be crazy.
Am I alone?
I feel alone.
Today.
Will I feel alone tomorrow?
Will I feel alone in five years?
I'm scared to be single.
I'm scared to be in a relationship.
I feel like no one really understands me.
But then I fee like everyone understands but doesn't really care.
My problems aren't big.
My problems aren't big enough.
My problems, big or small, matter to God.
He listens to me when I rant like this.
I just get so frustrated because I seem to never run out of complaints.
I seem to never run out of requests.
I never run out of concerns.
I can't seem to master the whole "don't worry, God will take care of it" thing.
I know God is there.
I feel Him with me in the room right now.
That part of my heart is right.
I just want...peace.
I want it all to go away.
But then I don't.
Life is hard.
I'm sorry.
I didn't anticipate this one.
It just kind of spouted.
What am I seeking here?
Companionship?
Love?
Peace?
All of the above?
I've sought God and found Him again.
I'm so happy about that fact.
When does it start getting easier?
Or does it?
I feel like I'm too old to be asking these questions.
I'm not looking for an answer from you.
I'm okay.
I haven't had a very good couple of days.

You ever have days like that?