Peter Pan

As usual, I'm deciding to blog when I should be studying/working/being productive. But I am about to make you very, very proud of me.

I just completed writing a 126 page screenplay for my screenwriting class. I did it. I am so excited. It was probably the biggest project I've completed since starting college. Have you ever written 126 pages for a single project? If you have, Kudos. I feel your pain. If you haven't, you should try it. It might suck along the way but you'll feel like one hell of a human being once you're through. Let me tell you a little about it. It's a modern adaptation of Shakespeare's The Two Gentlemen of Verona. We just performed the play back in October (I played Julia) so it was all still fresh on my mind. It worked quite well. If you want to read it, contact me. If I trust you/like you, I'll gladly let you take a gander. Damn, it feels good to just be done with it though. I still have a couple more big projects to work on for finals week but who the eff cares. It'll get done. The worst is over. Isn't that a good feeling...

...the worst is over...is it really?

People constantly say "I hate drama, I hate drama." I know I've said it/say it/will say it again. Who really likes fighting with people or being in a awkward situation or making themselves vulnerable? No one. BUT. I've come to realize over the years that life simply is drama. Drama makes up our everyday. Our every moment. Our every breath. And honestly, it makes life interesting. I mean, imagine a world where nothing ever happened. We'd all blow our brains out with pistols out of boredom. Wow, that was more morbid than I meant it to be.

Now, there are some people that take this idea a little too far. And then there are some people that take the idea WAY too far. These are the people that create drama. The people that thrive off drama. The people whose lives are so uninteresting, they make up soap-opera scenarios in order to "fill that void" or something. I am not a fan of people like this. I hope that I am not one of those people. It scares me to death when I think I've done something to hurt another person or stir up trouble. It turns my stomach just thinking about it.

Can't we all just get along?

It's finals week. A week before some of my friends graduate college. That'll be me in a year. But we're not talking about that. Not yet. In my mind, I will be a little kid forever. Peter Pan. That's me. Just the girl version. Wendy? No...she grew up eventually. I digress. My point is that there are people who are leaving my life (possibly forever) in less than a week. Some people I know really well. Some people I used to know really well. A lot of people are strangers. College is such a weird time because you develop these ties to people and then one day, without anyone's permission, the ties are cut. You've got to live with what you built with those people. So what have I built? Have I impacted anyone? Does it really matter?

It matters to me because...people have impacted me.

So go. Live. Succeed. Don't do anything stupid. Fall in love. Get married. Have babies. Praise the Lord. Travel. Do things that scare you. Do things that make you happy. Try new things. Learn constantly. Love constantly. Help others. Lead others. Make money if you can. Remember your roots. Grow wings. Fly.

I hope you wish the same for me in a year.

LAURIE: "Since the moment I met you, I knew we'd be magnificent together."
JO: "We are magnificent together."

Isn't is amazing how two such similar sentences have totally different meanings from two people?

"Here I go, and there's no turning back
My great adventure has begun
I may be small but I've got giant plans
To shine as brightly as the sun
I will blaze until I find my time and place
I will be fearless, surrendering modesty and grace
I will not disappear without a trace
I'll shout and start a riot
Be anything but quiet

I'll be astonishing."

I don't know what I'm looking for or where I'm looking for it...I just pray that I find it. Sooner. Please. Rather than later.

We are magnificent together.